Thriller

*Disclaimer - anything written here is completely my own opinion and has nothing to do with the views of FFO*

Same goes for everything in this blog but in light of recent stuff I just felt the need for a disclaimer.


I currently feel I have lots to say....

I had a blast doing thriller, everyone did an amazing job, but in the end it just felt like another preshow. Hanging with an old friend afterwards reminded me of some things. Firstly none of the people in my life now are true "Rocky People" and they never will be. It was hard as heck to get anyone to come out and support me. One friend (and her husband) that came left in the middle of the show. Which I knew about before hand and I was ok with.

But this "old" friend (the only other person I got to go) is a true Rocky person. For one thing Rocky people support each other by going to shows (their own or otherwise) as audience memebers. She reminded me of some of the little things that used to go on at the show I used to go to about 11 years ago (eeek!! I'm old)

The bottom line is, I miss the giant cardboard penis and the floorgy. Serioulsy. All this "movie accuracy" is cool and all but it's breaking my Rocky spirit. sort of. I'm kinda divided on the whole thing. I love my cast. mostly. Except for some stupid cast politics. I love all the people on my cast. And I do mean *all* the people. Even tho sometimes I get angry with certian people for not acting their age. or for acting their age. I forget how young some of them are. But I'm not on some kind of "I'm older than you so fuck off" kind of trip.... I see them all as equals for the most part. I'm so split on Rocky right now it's crazy. Some things I like, some things I don't. I don't like my weight being used as a factor for anything. Second time in my life that's happened and I am FAR from being fat. But I'm not skinny any more either. I can only imagine what it's like for someone who actually is serioulsy overweight like more than the 10-15lbs that I tend to carry.... but I digress.... the fact that nobody in my life really wanted to come out and witness me on the big screen makes me reevaluate why I personally do Rocky. Don't get me wrong it was fun. It was alot of fun and I am proud to have been a part of that show... but like I said I'm divided.... but I'm not leaving my cast any time soon either.


I will post a link to our Thriller preshow when I get a chance to upload it.