This is sort of like what happened in August. All kinds of stuff happened that was "blog-worthy" but I didn't blog. In the case of August, however I just kept on not blogging. I have so much to say about this weekend, but my friend Kelly (who has been living in England) is coming back tonight. Then she's getting married next Friday, and her and her new husband will head back "home" to England. I get my bridesmaid dress tonight! I'm so excited for her!! I can't wait to meet her Mal (soon to be husband). Oh well. Somehow I will get caught up on life. Things are getting better I think.

I finally decide to post pics and my camera battery needs to be charged. blah. Oh well. Tomorrow morning then. I've been feeling really strange recently. Since this weekend especially I think. Not sure why. Everything is "ok" at the moment. :0D

So I'm headed up to northern California tonight for the weekend because Bunny made Phill a pair of pants and wants to give them to him for her birthday (none of that is a typo by the way). Should be interesting.

I was thinking about things and I realized that the month of August is kinda missing. Like it's just a blur. I know I did stuff, and went places, and saw people and whatnot. But the thing that stands out the most is one day where I forgot to take my anti-depressant, got so sick of my room looking the way it was and I just cleaned. My room was such a mess and I was really unmotivated. That was the month of August. I thought about this and realized that I started taking the anti-sleeping pills right at the beginnig of August. The combo of pills was not a good one for me. I had no idea untill I got off the provigil(anti-sleep). Only then did I look back and think "wtf happened to August!?!". So they switched my provigil with adderall (ADHD medication, but can also be used for narcolepsy). Sheesh. The whole pill thing (wich is supposed to keep me from being crazy, heh) is making me crazy.

Just check out all my blog entries from the end of July untill now...
What me cynical? never!

K, I'm blogging more than once/twice a week now, or was it down to once a month? heh. Dosen't really matter. It's easier to write more when you actually know people read what you write. Altho I don't really know what difference that makes, since I'm only doing this for myself. It's good to be loved :0) I think that's why.

All I do is sleep, it's realy bumming me out.

"Take this pill and you won't be depressed anymore!"

Yes very true, but I just wish the pill would not make me so darn tired I can't enjoy my non-deprssed state cause I'm so fucking tired. So I get pills to keep me awake, but they are ceasing to work and they make my jaw stiff. Very strange. So for awhile I would wake up take the pill to keep me up and go back to bed. And then I would still get to work around 9:30-10 when I should be there at 9. But then at least I would be semi awake during the day.

I have momentarily stopped the pills that keep me awake and at the doctors suggestion I am going to take my anti-depressant a bit earlier in the evening. I got a perscription for different keep me awake pills, but I can't fill it till Thurs when I get some money cause I am broke at the moment. So it's going to be yoga and caffiene for the next couple of days.

Wish me luck.

So I got some interesting reactions to the last pic I posted. Either I'm old, or I'm a real hottie. LOL!!! It was just a "I have to take a pic of myself before I wash my hair and the color starts to fade" picture. I didn't think it was that great... or that bad either.

I am completely lacking in the motivation department. Here's hoping I can change that...

Anyway,

I have purple hair!!!

I think it's worth a picture.



hrm, I don't look too happy, do I?